Author: Jasmine Warga
Release Date: February 10, 2015
Genre: YA Contemporary
Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.
There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution: a teen boy with the username FrozenRobot (aka Roman) who’s haunted by a family tragedy is looking for a partner.
Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together. Except that Roman may not be so easy to convince.
My Heart and Other Black Holes is one of the most honest contemporary novels I’ve read so far. Aysel is pretty much depressed and suicidal. And since she doesn’t want to do it alone, she stumbled upon a website looking for suicide partners, there she meet Roman aka FrozenRobot. Both of them experienced a tragedy and they both know that it is slowly damaging their families apart. And since they can’t cope with grief, they both decided to kill themselves.
For people experiencing depression, it’s hard to admit to themselves that they are indeed, depressed. Most especially its hard to admit that they no longer want to live, the wanted to die. It is something to word hard on, to love and cherish your own self. From the book, what I really liked was when they were suicide partners but later turned to be something more. And I will tell you, the ending shocked me! I wasn’t expecting the ending. Ah, love is indeed the answer to almost everything (?) and I am happy to experience the journey all the way to the end.
To anyone who experiences depression or any other form of mental illness, I want you to know that I am here. You are not alone. Because I get where you’re coming from, I am depressed to. And what I hate is that to those people who hasn’t got, just don’t get it. Depression is living in a body that fights to survive with a mind that tries to die. If those people could just read our mind, they’d be in tears. But always remember, if I can, you can as well.